A half of a biscuit & (I think that's a sardine)

that's about all i got..

it's a whole lot bigger than what i picture.. lol

in John 6, there was a lil' boy who apparently walked by & offered his peanut-sized lunch to a crowd of 5,000 people. NOT counting women & children.

can somebody say BOLD?? 

i would imagine myself lookin' at him & shakin' my head if i were one of the disciples thinkin' wow.. what in the WORLD is he thinkin.. 

obviously he ain't thinkin'.. 

i don't know what the lil' boy was thinkin.. but what i DO know is that

GOD USED HIM THAT DAY. 

the people were hungry. it was already gettin dark. there was NO way that Jesus Christ would send them away in darkness & hungry.

in the same way, there are people who are hungry for truth. truth that will TRULY make them free. people who live in a land corrupt with darkness & false doctrines.

right here in NYC we witness this stuff, but this time i'm talkin' about Nairobi, Kenya.

& God is sendin' lil' ol' me.. with my half a biscuit & one sardine.

i'm sure that's all i got. lol.. believe me, i've checked! & yet, Jesus has decided that just like He told the disciples over 2,000 years ago, He's hittin' me with the SAME challenge.

YOU give 'em sumthin to eat, Tosha!

part of me is all ugh with fear.. (the part that needs to DIE)
& the other part of me is like

Let's do THIS!!

From April 19-29 I will be traveling, ministering, eating & breathing with a team of five in Nairobi, Kenya.

pray for me. :)

We will be working with girls who have escaped FGM (female genital mutilation).

look it up.. it's saddening
wait.. maybe you shouldn't look it up.

if you do look it up.. don't say i didn't warn you.

This is quite an adventure for me (some of you know I'm a stay-at-home, homeschooling, home making momma woman)! Lol

(that's a lotta home... just call me homie.)

We'll be teaching them about relationships from a Biblical, godly perspective..  Both the benefits of doing things God's way & the consequences of allowing our emotions & desires to direct us. We'll be lovin' on 'em with God's love & doin' fun stuff too, like nails & hair tee hee.. I need God. I TRUST God. I'm believing God!

and you know what? it's like the ol' school song says, He's NEVER failed me yet!

sOoo.. i'm askin' you to pray.

if you don't know Jesus, but you understand the place of darkness & REAL hunger for a different kind of life, then you talk to Jesus about your need. ask Him to forgive you.. to wash you.. to change you.. then you pray for me. ;)

I'm grateful for the opportunity to go. God is faithful. honestly, i have no idea what to expect.

makes me excited & nervous all at the same time.

Pray for J-boy #1 (my sweet husband). He will spend the ten days I'm away being a missionary to our three children. *heh heh*

i remember one of those cliche' thingies that says "God doesn't call the equipped, He equips those He calls.."  sO, i'm trustin' Him with my lil' half of a sardine sandwich.. <3

photo credit here & here..

thankful #37

i'm sOo thankful for a home where there's peace..

yea, we have our difficulties, but there's PEACE here.  God's peace.  & i'm grateful.

^.^

important stuff. <3

thankful #9

i'm sOo thankful for sushi.

^.^

yummy. 

i will now write a haiku (cuz haikus make everything cooler)

Wet, yummy fishy
You taste sOo good going down
My esophagus. O_o


(u never really realize how many syllables a word has until u start haikuing it)

:D

photo cred here..

thankful # 73

i'm sOooo thankful for my Jesus.

nuff said. ;)

he replaces darkness with LIGHT..  :)

1 John 1:5 God is light. and in Him there is NO darkness at all..  <3

pic details here..

thankful # 237

sounds better than #1.. lol

friendship that turns into love.. that remains sweeter as the years go by..

that's what j-boy #1 & i have.. <3

if you haven't seen UP, you might want to..
the pic makes more sense if you know the story..

pic credit here..

REAL medicine!

if ever a reason to become a doctor, it's to be like this dude..

he's awesome.. & so is his savior! ;)

take a look.. 

“The King will reply, ‘Truly I tell you, whatever you did for one of the least of these brothers and sisters of mine, you did for me.’

 ~Jesus Christ

another *thankful* thursday!! yay!! ^.^

TOMORROW....

dunh dunh dunhhhhh...

i get the stitches removed from my *ahem* pit of despair where my good 'ol wisdom toof used to be.

i'm thankful!

u know why?  cuz since i had the wisdom tooth extracted last week, the stitches have left me with a weird discomfort.

u know why?  cuz my CHEEK is stitched to my GUM where my TOOF used to be. (read last week's thankful thursday post for THAT story)

heh.

sweetest half grand ever spent. lol..

just kidding.  O______o

anyway, i googled it.. & apparently, this is a NORMAL fail procedure.. LOTS of people complain of it..

O_o

honestly, i don't know.. maybe it REALLY is standard procedure.  everyone has guesses of the reasons WHY their moufes iz jacked up, yet from what I can tell, no one bothered to ask their dear ol' maxillofacial surgeon. lol...  those are fancy words for *the person who jacked up my mouf*

sOoo.. u know what MY *first* question will be tomorrow to the person who jacked up MY mouf at NYU?

WHY is my cheek stuck to my tooth pit??

*somebody* better have a GOOD reason. O_o or i'll probably start crying. 

& guess what?  i'll post the response, cuz i've had a few days of terror when i look at that area in the mirror since the swelling went down.

can't wait to see if i have *permanent* cheek in my toof pit.
this is eXciTingg!!  ^.^

just kidding.. 

well, at least my mouf doesn't look like this, right?  O_o right?

honestly, i've learned a VERY valuable lesson of forgiveness thru all of this..

FORGIVE.

forgive your momma, forgive yO daddy, & forgive yO maxillofacial surgeon for jackin' up yO mouf.

it's in the Bible..

i'm thankful..  <3

photo credit here.. 

THANK-full!!

i decided JUST NOW that i HAVE to do a things i'm thankful for list!

as a matter of fact, i'm probably gunna start a THANKFUL THURSDAY!! Yay!

what a great way to be reminded that we shouldn't be selfish, self-centered bratty kids who throw tantrums over the littlest lack.

-__-

bleh.

i'll do one thankful thing a day this week.. then on Thanksgiving, i'll try to make a top ten list.

this is already fun!! ^.^

(or maybe i'm just a dork.. O_o)

eh heh.

anyway. today, i'm thankful for thrift shops.

money is tight.

i'm ok with that.

the reality is that we all need to be okay with that..

it may just get worse.

but this post is NOT about tight money.. (HA! witty, right??)

i LOVE thrift shops. i think i'd be the ONLY millionaire shopping at 'em if i WAS a millionaire.

don't get excited. i'm NOT a millionaire. *honestly*

heh heh..

anyway... in being *thank-full* for thrift shops.

i SCORED big time today!!

i'm sO happy.

u see those FLY-girl shoes?? TEN bucks! LOL..

i don't buy second hand shoes. i think that's YUK. for VERY obvious reasons. i get *squeamish* in just goin' bowling.. O_o ick.

blehk.

these are NEW shoes!!! i'm a happy girl. :)