haiku for u. *fail*

i came to my blog today for the first time in over a month & realized how much i suck.

i haven't written here in AGES, at least that's how it feels..

and sOo.. i realized why..  a lot of times as a blogger, it's easy to feel like no one is reading.. when you're not keeping count.  O_o

sO, i decided to take a peek @ my stats.. and sure enough, people out there in the blogosphere are willing to take a look @ my lil' piece of the universe.

sOooOo.. i took a moment to write a haiku. this one is dedicated to YOU *dear readers*.

YOu make me happy!

YOu are so, sO nice to me.

why do i keep typing YO?

tee hee.. happy wednesday, you wonderful YOus.  <3

err.. a few corrections. the doodle is NOT to go with this haiku.. it's to go with my luv 4 my blog readers.. heh heh..

& haikus suck. who has time to remember 5, 7, 5???

i do. heh..

so.. i blew it. i typed a 7 syllable line to end the thing.. sOoo. this is actually a FAIKU. 

that's a new kind. *fake* haiku. heh. heh. 

GET it?? ... nevermind. -__-

here's another one.. i owe you for your time. this way you don't feel like you're a loser for reading.. lol

and this one will actually go with the doodle.. *ahem*.. 

ohh, little birdie.

do you melt in my mouth?

yuck.. nevermind. *gross* O_o

here's a lil' doodle to go with my haiku..  i don't know why i like drawing lil' birdies..

i just do.  :)

doodlin' that's about it..

it's been a while, once more.. and honestly, i don't have much to type for my absence. i've been in very much a rut.. 

it goes something like this: 

no creative inspiration.. no drive.. no initiative.. no this.. no that..

.. even feeling like i'm the ONLY one in my predicament.. THEN i spoke to a friend the other day who shed some *light* on my situation..

i'm NOT the ONLY one.. 

i drew this lil' doodle to sum things up.. i FEEL like the lil' guy on the right LOOKS.. lol...

it just feels that way. & that's the way the enemy of my soul would like for me to feel.. like i'm the only one who goes thru stuff.

meh.

i heard a preacher say once, "being a Christian is NOT hard, it's IMPOSSIBLE!"

& he was absolutely right. being a REAL Christian requires Christ's intervention continually.. & as we all who are His know.. that takes LOTS of denying of my own selfish tendencies to embrace the will & purposes of my Lord. & in the process.. i throw lots of tantrums.

*embarrassing..* 

but, hey.. i'm bein' honest. 'cuz He knows that i wanna be more like Him. by HIS grace.

& that's possible. ;)

And Jesus said to him, "'If You can?' All things are possible to him who believes."

Mark 9:23

a need for the bug..

i'd REALLY like to get all crafty self right now..

instead, i'm all stuck with my ever-desiring need to look at other people's ingenious ideas..

sOooo..

what's a girl to do??

1st of all.. just writing what i've written so far inspires me to draw a lil' bug.. like this one:

now i just need more stirring for other stuff..  :)

like something patchy.. or pillowy.. or colorful..

hmm..

best. pet. ever.

i have ALWAYS said, "if i could have my way, i would have a two foot tall giraffe for a pet.. & now thanks to these guys, i am sOoo close..

& i will call him George..

yay! i'm on the *waiting list*  ;)

3 weeks to go..

i'm officially on week 33 of school..

can you say *exhausted*?

i'm tellin' u.. this is EXACTLY what i look like..

i honestly feel like i have nothing left to give my kids. & they're just as done as i am!

yet... everywhere i turn, every devotional, every scripture, every spiritual message points me back to the most interesting paradox of being a Christian  homeschooling mom..

i'm RIGHT where i'm supposed to be..

^.^

enjoy your profound revelations..  :)

oh, & by the way.. i JUST realized as i'm typing that this is one of those good 'ol thankful thursday posts..

*you might be asking*- sO, what are you thankful for, lil' momma? 

only three weeks to go... ;)

photo credit

a love nest..

i am a lil' birdie.. i *KNEW* it.

i sure do need one!  this baby is ADORABLE!!  i could dream away in there.. & all my neighbors in the hood would envy me..  heh heh..

i'm not much of a napper, but couldn't you just see yourself snoozin' away in one o' these??

it's aBsOLutELy amaZing.. & you HAVE to see more pics.  honestly. 

no. seriously. take a look..

now all i have to do is find a friggin' tree..  O_o

gosh. <3

momma's day.. er... weekend.

i must've had the best mother's day ever this weekend!  i was tOtaLLy spoiled!

on friday, i got my biggest & most exciting gift of all.. of course, i'm undeserving.. but i'm enjoying it sOoo much!

meet my djembe!!  ;)

i'm a happy momma!  i'm always tappin' away at stuff.. i didn't realize how much i'd enjoy having a drum until i brought it home!  the sound is superb!  very deep base tones, but the rim makes it sound sorta bongo-ey..  it's sO enjoyable to play!

THEN on Saturday, i got a necklace with matching earrings from my big girl along with lots & lots of hugs!  i'm on a cloud.  ^.^

THEN on Sunday, Pastor Carter must've preached the best message for my heart. & i received a big ol' challenge that will definitely be followed up with some good ol' ACTION.

:)

i got mother's day cards.. more hugs.. a warm, sunshiny day.. and a wonderful family ...

all for FREE!! 

who could ask for anything more!

:)

happy momma's day, friends!  <3