Saturday, October 8, 2011

playground possession..

Jesus showed up in the playground today..


cuz He's awesome like that. ;)

i went there with my drum & three lil' people & left with a harvest of friends!

honestly, i had NO intention whatsoever of doin' this.. but ever since i got my djembe, i've felt God telling me to take some worship into the playground..

& sO.. finally, after LOTS of fear & fear.. and (did i mention fear?)  AND fear..  i went.

let me explain sumthin to you.

this park is packed with *action*.. drug selling.. drug buying.. & other stuff..  yea. that kind of *action*

(you get the picture)

& all along, i've wrestled with the Lord regarding where i live. asking Him for a love for the people of my community.

if Jesus wasn't givin' it, it wasn't gonna happen.

& since i've been praying concerning playing the drum in the park, i've reaLLy just cried out to the Lord for this love that ONLY He can give. it's called AGAPE, people.

you just can't explain it. cuz it's NOT from you.. it's other-worldly (Jesus' world) it's unconditional.. &


& today, i went to the park with a drum & my three lil' people to experience this love with the people in the park.

i looked for a spot to play & sing. there was really only one place i could go.. right NEXT to the people who spoke all kinds of yuk that i'd prefer NOT to be a part of.. but GOD'S LOVE abounds!!

i sit down, take my drum.. & start playin' & singin'... the vulgar language of the adults next to me ceases.
a few of the dudes start comin' over to inspect.. & their enjoyin' the beat with a few Uhs.. then, ALL of the ruffians disappear. & lil' kids start peekin'.. cuz Jesus wants them the most.

they're our future. Whitney didn't make that up..  ;)

one by one they head over to dance a lil' bit.. & they inch closer.. and closer.. and closer..

and closer. 

to enjoy the closeness of my wonderful Jesus. oh how he LOVES the lil' people!!  <3

eventually, there's a crowd of eight or so & they're soakin' in the drum beats, singing & smiles. they're even tryin' to see who can be the closest.

i share the truth with these lil' people. about Jesus' love. sacrifice. death. AND resurrection!

some sweet stuff happened in the park today. & it ended with the kids singin' "nothin' but the blood of Jesus" with me..

nothin' but the BLOOD.  

as we walked back home, one of my j-boys said, "mommy, why were u guys actin' like you were such close friends?"

i remembered what Jesus said instantly..

"let the children come to me.. & don't stop 'em!  my kingdom belongs to the ones who are like them."
Matthew 19:14 (teateepee's version)

we gotta remember to be like lil' people.. <3

photo credit here..

Thursday, October 6, 2011

thankful thursday!!! with update*

i'm officially a goober.

i knew this already. but now i REALLY know it.

lemme ask YOU a question..

have you EVER mistaken somebody for dead??


wait.. lemme ask you again.. cuz you probably think i'm playin'... 

have you EVER mistaken somebody for dead??


well, i did..
yesterday, actually. lol

*no joke*

mind you, this is NOT sumthin i'm proud of. it just kinda happened..  & i felt like such an idiot for it.. that's probably what i am.

not a goober. an idiot. yea, that's it. o_O

my friend has been sick for a very LOOOONGG time. & the other day she posted a fb note via someone else. apparently cuz she's gotten just that sick. at the end of the note, her signature was "i'll see you on the other side.."

well.. the note IS circulating as if it's an obituary..

whatever. i'm not gonna keep goin' on this one.

i think this blog is my *venting* post right now..

shame on me.

she ain't dead. (at least i don't think she is..)

anyway, this WHOLE fiasco of an ordeal got me thinkin'..

WOW.. life is SHORT. first Steve Jobs & now an old friend from grade school (who's not dead, but sick)

people need to act like they KNOW.

am i doin' what i'm supposed to be doin'? am i being SALT & LIGHT (Matthew 5:13, 14)
am i living the way i should?

i'm a work in progress if i've ever seen one. i screw up EVERYday. but my life belong's to Jesus Christ.

i don't EVER wanna belittle my allegiance to the ONE who died for me.

better yet, HIS allegiance to me.

& yet, i see in myself, just as Peter & EVERY other believer does, this battle with my ugly self.

to try to get my way..

but then i remember that this life is not MINE. & i give it back to Him. cuz really,

nothin' else matters.

i'd be a fool to return to the vomit of an existence i used to know.. i've put myself in some predicaments that i shouldn't have only to get what *i* wanted.
pretty much sucks.

i was reading in Genesis tonight about when Cain was given the boot (you know... out  of his home). never to return to the sweet family life he once knew.. (the garden was already jacked up, but at least he had two parents that loved him, right?)


he moved to NOD. that word means vagrancy. & vagrancy basically means "wanderin' without purpose"

i'm sorry, but i've been to NOD. 


makes ya nod. lol..

& i'm done. i got better things to do. like LIVE.

kinda like my friend from grade school.. the girl ain't dead yet.. & neither am i. she attempted to share a lil' encouragement about her suffering & the Lord.

i *think* this is what this is 'spoze to be. (an encouragement) heh heh..

like Dory said in Finding Nemo.. *just keep swimming, just keep swimming..*

great advice from a lil' blue fishie. (i'm takin' it..)

& i'm *thankful*

UPDATE** my friend died three days after my big oops..

life is short. Jesus Christ is STILL the ONLY answer. 

TODAY is..

"Come & TAKE it DAY"

you can't make this stuff up. (read about it here)

all i hafta say is...

somebody's probably goin' to jail..  O_o

only good thing to come out of this holiday for me was a lil' doodle.. 

NOTE to self: you really should make up holidays that benefit EVERYbody..

but not in this way..

sure, cops are benefitting (they won't be bored).. you benefit when you take what you want.

but, if the end result is you're locked up.. are you happy at the end of your *holiday*??

i don't think so.

happy "come & take it day" lol..

just kidding.

Wednesday, October 5, 2011

DEEP thought for the day..

What if the hokey-pokey is really what it's all about?

it's NOT.  


Tuesday, October 4, 2011

u smell dat? o_O

before this past week, i would've been the first person to ask about ANY foreign smell.. people who know me well KNOW that i can smell people cookin' oatmeal in Siberia.

and yet.. i've burnt things this week.
dude.. all that brown is CHEESE. o_O

you know how people say frozen pizzas taste like cardboard..? well, they're wrong. they taste fine until you burn them.. then they taste like BURNT cardboard.

don't worry, i'm not proud of that. 


i'm tellin' you.. & this may sound craZy, but literally, when things are "done" i could smell the "doneness" before what happened two weeks ago..

and NOW. my sense of smell is BROKE. BUSTED. JACKED UP.


this isn't funny. i'm disturbed.

j-boy #1 says it's probably got sumthin to do with that good 'ol dentist maxillofacial surgeon visit i made not too long ago.. you can read about it here..

and yea.. i know what you're probably thinkin'

"here we go again!  girl, get over it!!"

but, you'd be bugged out too if all of a sudden part of you is not workin' right.. wouldn't you??

and you KNOW they say the ear, nose & throat are ALL connected.


we 'gone be eatin' sum burnt EVERYthing 'til i get this worked out.

God help me. & my nose.

maybe i'm overreacting, right..?

okay.. to be fair.

either it's the surgery OR me just getting too distracted writing to you about all of my drama..

hmm..  ;)

Monday, October 3, 2011

sweet slipper shopping.

i was sO totally doin' some VERY necessary slipper shopping online when i decided to check on etsy.

now anyone who knows etsy KNOWS that etsians are VERY much a people who want to make money, (you know.. greenbacks, cheddar, dough). heh heh...

in other words, they ain't sellin' no peanuts.  O_o

but i hafta say, i found some awesomely crafted stuff..

there are some eXtremeLy creative people in the world!

look at these..
super adorable. insane, actually. (but i can't give her my 50 bucks for 'em)
and these!! 

now she KNOWS if i'm not givin' the boot girl, my $50, 
i'm certainly not gonna give her $75 for some peas.  O_o
and these!! (for when i feel like being a happy elf)
but, for 65 bucks, would i really be THAT  happy???

and these for when my feet shrink..
a LOT.

obviously, as you can tell, i am the WORST person to shop with ever. i prefer not spending over 5 bucks for ANYthing. (cheapskate)& unfortunately, i tend to have funky, but expensive taste.. cuz people who think funky, also think *show me da money*

just kidding..

but just ask me for my paypal account info if you wanna donate to my slipper fund. :D

just kidding... lol 

Sunday, October 2, 2011

photography love!

her work is SWEET. well, not all of it is hers, but i'm thoroughly impressed..

sweet green!

vibrant colors..

the one below is a great photographer also.. it's from this guy.. quite impressive photography.. some a lil' yuck, though..  :D

his subject matter may make you a bit *squeamish* lol

i'm lovin' the double rainbow.